i miss my dogs.... :(

secret wish of the day: gain weight and not be SO DAMN tired!

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I am starting a new blog, a second blog. Lord help me but I think I can do it! Its for my dogs and for me too, so that I can have another creative outlet and to share thier silly ways. So Our Doggies Tails is new and I think it will be fun!

Take a breath

Today we took our Bella to the vet.

She broke her toenail this weekend. :(

We all went to the dog park and when we got home my lover saw her limping.

We think it happened when she was trying to get away from another dog.

There was a bigger dog who was playing ruff and at one point tried to mount her.

She gets really excited with other dogs and she has not been spayed yet so we like to keep her on leash.

So we looked up how we could take care of her foot at home, so that her toe wouldn't get even more messed up, until we could get her to a vet. 

My lover and I were worried because we don't have money.

But she needed to see a vet, the brake was at the base of toenail.

Luckily however, I qualified for a carecredit card.

So we can get her what she needs and be able to pay for it!

We are able to get her toenail fix and get her fix!

And that makes me happy, excited even!

But we have to leave her there over night and I have been so antsy. 

I know she is ok and in great hands.

But...she is not with me and she is going to hurt when she wakes up. :(

So, all I need to do today is take a breath.

The other thing that is going on today is my work site is being evaluated!

I get to go to work and be watched, yay! 

t m i

This maybe t.m.i. but, I want to share, so whatever.

I live in a studio apartment with my lover.

Because it's just my lover and I; I pee with the bathroom door open. And this one time I was finishing up and I looked over and I see my dogs. They were both peering over the corner of the wall looking at me with their heads cocked to the side. Looking very curious at me as if to say 'what are you doing?'

They make me smile and keep me happy.

They are silly and sweet.

They get so very EXCITED!

But so very good.

They may need some obedient training

(well I need the training but that is something else)

But they are so very good; most of the time!

The other thing that maybe t.m.i. is

I have gas.

I have so much gas.

And it hurts!

So I let it out.

I think it could be my meds.

Sometimes it comes at inappropriate times.

And I think it's funny.

Like during a quite moment in a movie or show.

My gas starts to hurts me and I need to let it out.

So, I do...and then well, I laugh...a lot!

Then my lover looks over at me because I just ruined the moment.

And I can't help it, it's just so funny!

So I laugh!

Secret wish for the day: To actually get pictures of my doggies being so cute and not missing the moment by just seconds.

things that make me smile

My lover!......................................Road trips!

Food and snacks!...........................Taking pictures!

Making the baby laugh!...................Watching the dogs play!

Getting to hold the little one!..........Being able to just sit down and

veg out with the television! Getting overly excited about something

that I have seen and my lover caves! Thinking about all the places I

want to go to and planning on how to get there! I have this pink

chair that is big enough for Bella and I to sit in and Bella gets

to help me writ my blog, facebook games, or just surf the

web! Taking vacations with just my lover and I, and

maybe the dogs too! Learning new ways to make

jewelry! Sitting at home watching a movie with

my lover! Being with my family an my

friends! Watching my lover acted like

a dork! Watching the waves on the

beach! Date night! Creating!

Drawing! Smiling!

Love!

Secret with of the day: A rice bowl from Jack in the Box!

AWE! Father-Daughter!

I saw these two on Ellen today and they are just the cutest!

She is the sweetest little girl!

I want songs and a prayer before bed when we have a kid!

Or kids whatever happens.

This duo makes my heart melt!

I just love it!!

Secret wish of the day: To make a child as humble as this little one!

Sanity

I know things are hard for us right now but things will pick up.

It will happen.

We will make it happen.

The things that keep sane while my head makes me absolutely mad

are my crazy husband, the occasional family or friend thing, and the dogs.

While facebook and netflix can help me drowned out the stress of my life my everyday life,

they don't help me feel better.

I like my job but that can be a stesser in itself and that's not much help.

School was a bust this semester because of financial aid.

So I go out when I can, and my lover makes me laugh everyday!

Which is good too cause I usually cough up and out some green crap!

And Yes before I did say dogs, lol it's not a typo it is a new decision.

My lover found a small dog and we just couldn't leave him.

We tried to find his home but couldn't, and we tried to give him to the rescue that we got Bella from but she changed her number.

And now he is growing on us, GREAT!

It's so awesome being dog lovers. :)

But this comes at a time when we are trying to find a different place to live so it's going to working out. We have also named him....so ya! lol we are stuck with him....heehee.

I don't know, he is cute and Bella loves him.

She loves her Buddy.

In other news I am feeling the need to start working on a creative outlet for myself. Just not sure yet which thing I want to start.

I have also been trying to figure out how to make our lives work around getting the careers we want. My lover wants to be a Firefighter and I want to be a Physical Therapist.

I've been watching the news the last few days and it is just so hard to believe what is going on in Japan. All of the damage is so hard for me to wrap my head around. I wish the best to them in fixing and rebuilding their lives and their land.

The craziest video I have seen was from a friends post on facebook. A cameraman living in Tokyo made a film from footage off of a television station in Japan. In the footage you can see the water rising up from the street. The person filming is so close to the water, I am amazed that they didn't get swept away. The current is so strong that you can see it creep up and take away cars, a railing and buildings. It is astonishing and breathtaking how insane mother nature is.

Secret with of the Day: Get my travel fix in, with all the travel snacks.

Arg...

I feel so unproductive, unmotivated, and something else...

bla...that's what it is!

There is so much Brian and I have to do and this is how I feel.

I wont to get up and take care of my crap but I am also so discouraged.

So much to do and I feel like we are not going to get through it and get what we want.

I am not very happy with where we are right know.

I have so many things that I want to change!

I also have absolutely no idea were to start.

The really crappy part is that I kinda feel like I wont be able to get to where I wont to be.

Now I think it is safe to say that most of how I feel is in my own damn head.

But it is how I feel. So...

How do you know where to start?

The secret wish for today: to feel accomplished

...

i feel like i suck at life...

things have been really f'n hard lately.

my husband is so awesome about making life fun and good in the moment.

but all of the plans i make or try to make get messed up.

life, get in the way of my plans.

i am getting so discouraged lately...

the things that i want seem so out of reach right now.

brain can always make me laugh and smile.

i love him so much.

he turned 23 not too long ago but i couldn't really do anything for him.

all we could afford to do was buy a cake mix,

so i made him a cake...

it was nice i just wish we could have done more.

i guess i just need so wait...

life is like the earths surface

there are high points and low points.

and all the low point make you appreciate the high ones that much more!