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This maybe t.m.i. but, I want to share, so whatever.

I live in a studio apartment with my lover.

Because it's just my lover and I; I pee with the bathroom door open. And this one time I was finishing up and I looked over and I see my dogs. They were both peering over the corner of the wall looking at me with their heads cocked to the side. Looking very curious at me as if to say 'what are you doing?'

They make me smile and keep me happy.

They are silly and sweet.

They get so very EXCITED!

But so very good.

They may need some obedient training

(well I need the training but that is something else)

But they are so very good; most of the time!

The other thing that maybe t.m.i. is

I have gas.

I have so much gas.

And it hurts!

So I let it out.

I think it could be my meds.

Sometimes it comes at inappropriate times.

And I think it's funny.

Like during a quite moment in a movie or show.

My gas starts to hurts me and I need to let it out.

So, I do...and then well, I laugh...a lot!

Then my lover looks over at me because I just ruined the moment.

And I can't help it, it's just so funny!

So I laugh!

Secret wish for the day: To actually get pictures of my doggies being so cute and not missing the moment by just seconds.

Ramble Ramlbe

I have my doctors appointment today.

Lil nerves because it has been a while since my last one.

My cough has increased, and so I have been getting tried easy.

And living upstairs in my apartment has not been the greatest sometimes.

And this last weekend my stomach hurt one day and bad (I think gas) pains the nest day.

I got asked if I think that I would be put in....

and well, I don't know

I don't really think about it because I don't want to convince myself that I am sick enough to be put in and have that weighing over my head until my actual appointment.

It just makes things gloomy for me and I have dinner plans damn it!

idk it just that the hospital is so boring when your not sick enough to sleep though it.

Or at least that is how it is for me...

And on the other hand maybe I am sick but not sick enough to go in!

Maybe I can get some meds to do at home!

...well I will just see what happens...

well I guess enough ramblings from me, for now

...mow-hoo-ha-ha

Wooow!!

I am excited!

My little sister starts kindergarten today!

Brian is at work!

My mother in law is coming to stay this week!

Josh was in town this weekend!

Jake, my brother, is going to have a pool party soon!

Its been and going to be really nice!

I like being excited about having my mother in law stay.

I have the best mother in law.

She is planning on moving back to Stockton to be closer to her kids.

But secretly she is really coming home to encourage us to give her grand kids!

;)

I need a brake from kids before I make my own.

I have been a baby sitter for five years! I need a brake!

And most importantly my lover understands that.

Oooo!

I am happy to hear from my step mom about obgyn's that have had cystic patients in town.

I my not want kids now , but I will some time soon and I want to be prepared before the time comes.

I really need to get healthy before any babies.

My biggest problem, other than exercise, is weight.

I am so tiny, I hate being so small.

Its weird talking to people sometimes because I have the opposite problem,

I need to gain 15 pounds not loose it!

I think since I am not going to babysit full time any more I really need to focus on eating and exercise while I look for new work.

Wish me luck!

Time sure dose fly!

It has been like two months since my last post, and a lot has happened. My husband got laid off, I stopped babysitting one little one and by the end of next week I will be out of work. Want to through the never ending 'you need to do' list out the damb window. My little sister had her fifth birthday party today!! That was a lot of fun. But my dumb ass forgot the camera. Went to Ikea. My step mom is prego and is due in September. Very exciting stuff!! Crossed some 'you need to do's' off the list. YAY! Then added more. My hubby and I feel in love with a dog, a lab/pit bull mix, but we can't get a pet until we get a new job :( ...we even picked a name, pearl.... My brother in law came up for a visit and is going to move back up soon. I decided that I need to go finish my three classes so that I can get my AA degree (The thing that really sucks for me is by the time I had gotten serious about going back to school it was too late for me this semester. But Fall semester here I come baby!! I so need to go back to school, I am bored and I need a challenge.) I also decided that I want to study so that I can be a Physical Therapist. Josh road an 18 mile, on a totally awesome vintage bike, for Bike For Breath!!!! Some of the people that met my brother were amazed and wowed that he is for months out of a double lung transplant and was there participating in the event. But for us family members whom had the opportunity to go were not surprised by my brothers ability to be outstanding! I think that's about it, it as been fun and stressful but that's life! o ya, finally made that Dr appointment and I got new pills for the first time! I'd been on ultrase since forever but they discontinued so now they gave me creon. yay for pills.

Man of the Hour

I am intrigued by people.

In my life there have been many people I have found inspiring.

One of the people I find so dazzling is my very own Joshie.

Joshua Mompean is one of my brothers,

(I have two more plus a sister whom are also just as awesome!)

He is Mr. Hawk the superhero!

He is also in the middle of the biggest fight of his life.

We have Cystic Fibrosis.

His is way worse...dad says I always skated through it...

He has been through more then I can ever put onto a page.

Joshua Mompean, my Joshie, is a fighter!

Along with being a brother, he's also a husband, a son, a grandson, a talker (its the Mompean curse lol), caring, a family, loving, a pain in the ass, what!...yes sometimes all there is...is what!, giving, a man of the lord, sarcastic, a teacher, a forever student, LOUD, a friend, a hero and many others.

As a side note, I really wanted to put awesome, amazing and super good in front of some of those but..I thought that is would be a little much!

He is a fellow I have looked up to.

I love my brother.

I love my siblings.

They are wonderful, we love each othere very much and life wouldn't

have been so wonderful without them.

My brother and I are very much a like and very different.
We have a special bond and he will always have a speacial place in my heart.
No matter where he might be.

My only sadness is that I cannot be with him at this time,

as much as my heart desires, when in his life he needs suport from his famliy and friends.

Check out his story from age 3 here, to 26 here